Reviewed by Linda Tonis
Member of the Paranormal Romance Guild Review Team
Malcolm lost the love of his life ten years ago to cancer. It was a relationship where his partner, Everett, was older but Malcolm assumed the role of daddy. Now Malcolm has given up on ever finding that kind of relationship again. Instead of sitting home alone, he goes to a gay bar called Woody’s. It was at this hangout that he first came across Seth, a lost soul being bullied by two huge guys. Not being one that can just stand by and allow someone to be abused, Malcolm stepped in. In that moment both Seth and Malcolm knew his life would change.
Offering to take Seth home, Malcolm realizes his new friend lives in a very dangerous place. In spite of his warning to himself to not get involved, he can’t resist offering Seth the spare room in his home. Malcolm immediately realizes Seth is a very wounded young man, always apologizing for any little infraction he believes he has made.
Seth grew up in a very strict religious home with an abusive father. When Seth fell for the married Deacon at his church and the affair was discovered, the Deacon didn’t hesitate to throw Seth to the dogs. Crying that Seth bewitched him, the Deacon made Seth the villain of the story, something everyone including his father believed. Sent off to a conversion therapy camp where it was firmly believed that torture and all manner of abuse could change a gay person straight, Seth suffered for eighteen months. When he returned home, his father once again found a reason to send him back. This time the treatment was worse than ever. The only chance for Seth was to escape.
Now he finds himself with a man who wants nothing more than to protect him and care for his needs. It will take Seth time to believe what is happening. Drummed into him since he was a child that gays are evil, incapable of love, and God would abandon them, Seth has a hard time letting all that go. He knows he is gay and can’t help it. As he spends time with Malcolm, he comes to realize that so much of what he was taught was all a lie.
There is nothing Malcolm wants more than for him to become Seth’s “Daddy”. Can he possibly break down all the lies and hurts that Seth has suffered to the point when he can reveal his love for him without sending him screaming in fear? Seth cares for Malcolm, but neither man can reveal their feelings for fear of being hurt. This is the moment when communication was necessary.
I am writing this review while in quarantine due to the Pandemic and each time I watch the news all I see is anger and hate. We are living in a very scary time when the last thing anyone should even consider worrying about is a person’s sexual preference. Although I have read many BDSM books I still have a little difficulty with the daddy/boy relationship. It is something I have trouble understanding. However, I still believe everyone is free to love who they want and how they want.
A beautiful story of two men, each hurting, and each wanting nothing but to love and be loved.