Reviewed by: Linda Tonis
Member of the Paranormal Romance Review Team
Cary Stilwell is a top billed aerialist in a popular travelling circus and only when he is performing does he feel alive. Cary has been with the circus since he was ten years old and the owner Greta found him alone and crying. Cary is a tortured sole so filled with despair and guilt over something that happened in his childhood and which I will not reveal.
In order to get over the pain of his past he cuts himself but over the years a knife was not enough and he resorted to the use of a cilice which when used actually caused totally damage of his flesh leaving him a bloody mess and constantly doctoring up before he once again found peace up in the air.
The arrival of Rhys McIntyre a well known photographer would change Cary’s life. Rhy was a war photographer who gave it up before he burnt out and when an offer to do a fancy coffee table book about circuses and for him to live with the circus for a few months he took the job even though the thought of seeing clowns left him shivering.
At first sight Cary and Rhys seem to feel a connection but getting Cary to let his walls down is definitely not an easy task even for a man like Rhy’s who has seen so much pain and death in his career. Not a man to give up Rhys is constantly putting himself into Cary’s space even though Cary is always rude. Cary has only a few people he cares about, Greta and Mario the clown, Mario another troubled soul who understands what Cary is going through.
At the age of ten something so horrific that I don’t even want to go into detail about what happened left Cary feeling ashamed, alone, scared and guilty but although Rhys knows nothing about his past or that he cuts he keeps on coming back hoping to finally get Cary to let his guard down.
This story is hard to read and left me feeling so much pain for the young boy Cary once was but with Rhys in his life can he finally put his past behind him and learn to live not just in the air but on the ground as well.