Living On Air Book Cover Living On Air
Susan Mac Nicol
M/M Romance
Boroughs Publishing Group
February 21, 2018


Cary Stilwell has been existing since he was ten years old, and each year it gets harder to find meaning in his bleak life. The only exception - his work. As a top-billed aerialist in a popular travelling circus, he enjoys accolades and applause, but little else. When notable photographer, Rhys McIntyre, joins the circus to catalogue its inner workings, Cary fights the attraction that hits him from the moment they meet. But a kind soul wrapped in a beautiful body has a way of battering all the walls Cary has built around his cold, dark heart.


Rhys McIntyre is on his third iteration of reinventing himself. Once a hotdog financier, he embraced his passion for photography and became an eminent war photo journalist. Until one too many bullets lodged in his body, and he gave up the front lines for the softer side of chronicling life. When he accepts the assignment to record life in a circus, the last thing he expects is to find the man crush of his dreams. Except Cary Stilwell is a cold, tortured man who seems incapable of any warm emotion, never mind love. But Rhys is known for his persistence, and this time the pay-off might be more than he could have ever imagined.

Reviewed by: Linda Tonis

Member of the Paranormal Romance Review Team

Cary Stilwell is a top billed aerialist in a popular travelling circus and only when he is performing does he feel alive. Cary has been with the circus since he was ten years old and the owner Greta found him alone and crying. Cary is a tortured sole so filled with despair and guilt over something that happened in his childhood and which I will not reveal.

In order to get over the pain of his past he cuts himself but over the years a knife was not enough and he resorted to the use of a cilice which when used actually caused totally damage of his flesh leaving him a bloody mess and constantly doctoring up before he once again found peace up in the air.

The arrival of Rhys McIntyre a well known photographer would change Cary’s life. Rhy was a war photographer who gave it up before he burnt out and when an offer to do a fancy coffee table book about circuses and for him to live with the circus for a few months he took the job even though the thought of seeing clowns left him shivering.

At first sight Cary and Rhys seem to feel a connection but getting Cary to let his walls down is definitely not an easy task even for a man like Rhy’s who has seen so much pain and death in his career. Not a man to give up Rhys is constantly putting himself into Cary’s space even though Cary is always rude. Cary has only a few people he cares about, Greta and Mario the clown, Mario another troubled soul who understands what Cary is going through.

At the age of ten something so horrific that I don’t even want to go into detail about what happened left Cary feeling ashamed, alone, scared and guilty but although Rhys knows nothing about his past or that he cuts he keeps on coming back hoping to finally get Cary to let his guard down.

This story is hard to read and left me feeling so much pain for the young boy Cary once was but with Rhys in his life can he finally put his past behind him and learn to live not just in the air but on the ground as well.